Where Have YoU BeeN?

It has been a year ago since my returns to indonesia. And guess what, although not being straight affected with the opinion of the people around me, at last i chose to have a job again. And it has been continuing for 6 months. But so far i don’t find any kind of satisfaction that i have been searching in my life. Instead of reaching satisfaction, i got home late through the whole day in the traffic in jakarta. Our children seem slowly loosing their guidance, so every time i got home earlier there are always issued that i should solve completed with my anger.

So, i keep thinking do this kind of job really worth it with the time that i had to sacrifice every week days. How much do i get every month? Resolution in 2011 is going to end soon. But i still have 4 months to go before everything becoming worst. And what exactly my resolutions in 2011? Let’s make it now although it is kind a bit to late.

1. I would like continue in giving monthly to my parents routines from my revenue
2. Hoping all the problems with my parents in financial will be resolved at least by the end of the year
3. Hopefully i can get pregnant on November and having two baby boy in July 2012
4. Reaching 4 digit revenue in blogging
5. Able to learn Quran intensively. Either in memorizing or reading
6. Having a catering online
6. Buying A car
7. Closed my debt in Bank Mandiri please Ya Allah
8. Renovate our house and move in back please Ya Allah

I think for the next 4 months, these kind of resolutions i think a bit hard. But for sure, insyaallah by the end of this month i will be working for myself and my family again. Insyaallah Hopefully my decision will be the right decision.

Bonne Courageuse!

Back to Lovely Place called Indonesia

It has been a while since i hadn’t wrote anything in this blog. It is because i was so busy preparing all the things for moving out from Dakar. Yes, that’s right today we’ve already in Jakarta Indonesia. There were so much things that we’ve learned in Dakar. Being very independent, mature and focus on my Goals.

When we’ve arrived in Jakarta, every time i met people, they always asked me the same question which is : Which one do you like better, living in Jakarta or in Dakar?? Well, as always i replied: each place where we live always have the negative and positive side. One thing for sure, The whole land is the same, it’s belongs to Allah SWT.

Hummm, living in Jakarta, it’s just a hectic city with full of pollution which caused my daughters always got cold and coughed. Everybody woke up in the morning just to go to work and got home at night only for sleeping. No Quality time with their children. They even stay longer in the traffic jam compare with their children.

The image of women staying at home to take care of their children means nothing in Indonesia. They usually give their respect to who can handle double job. As a mother and employee. But what about Islam thinks?? Well, after one month and half staying in Jakarta, i’m starting to feel uncomfortable because of this opinion.
In Jakarta, although we live with relatives, families, but i don’t find any comfort in my heart.

Comparing living in Dakar, We live frugal except food. I cannot hold the expenses for food. But Our hearts, i feel so much comfortable than living in Jakarta. The problems in Jakarta is much complicated than in Dakar. Everybody is showing their prestige, their wealth, and everything what they have.

Me and my husband had already make a vow that we’re going to live frugal in Jakarta. The same way when we were in Dakar. I’m trying my best. Even now, because of my outlook or appeareance in Aisyah school they thought that i am the maid of aisyah. You know why? It is because they only judging by the cover. Is it that important??

Staying for one and half month already gave me a lot of lesson. So what if i don’t look stylish? is it necessary to look stylish?? The most important things for me that i can reach all the goals by the end of this year.

Today i’ve already had 4 blogs, radhwanafi.com which tells about home improvement. It is a blog where i learned about how to blog and get index in google or other search engine. Second, shabab-aliraq.net, it is a blog with PR2, tells about finance, how to save and planning your expenses, and investment. So far i’m still giving all of my effort in this blog. The last two, blogs that i haven’t work it out. But so far if i recheck my goals in 2010 which are:

1. learning french : checked
2. getting a job for savings in dakar : checked
3. monetize blog : in process
4. support my family and children : in process
5. Al Quran : so sorry because you know it is really hard to have a commitment in this one, but from now on i’ll do my best..

Hopefully by the end of the year, i can support my parents full, and my family also. Inshaallah.

A life at the other side of continent

Living in Dakar, Senegal for more than one year and i have already learned a lot of things. Here in dakar, i learned when it comes to buy things, from now on, i can distinguish when i need something or want something…hehehehe When i was in Jakarta, i never be able to know the difference between needs and wants.

In Dakar also, i met also many different nations and different background of culture. Learn to respect the difference way of thinking, appreciate them and also don’t forget have fun together… yew!!

Living in the most simple life with no stress and also be dependent with Allah SWT along with the prayers every minute,seconds, night, and my life. Now, i can feel the comfort and serenity in praying…not just a ritual
Alhamdulillah…

Always having the quality time with my daughters. Alhamdulillah again…Now they really know that i really really love them so much although sometimes i’m still yelling at them. But they know for sure that i love them very much.

Positive feeling and minds…Despite of all the limitations, we as a family still and Alhamdulillah again are able to keep the positive feeling and minds which always give good effects to our life. Sometimes or i can always say often i got lucky in every single of my day.

Learning to live my life and entertain ourselves with the most simple way : watching the airplane landing from the top of our apartment…! Or just walking around just for half hour with my husband every afternoon. Or just to listen birds singing every morning in my apartment although i don’t have a bird. So Comforting….

Thank You Allah SWT… For these all of the opportunities that You have given to us….!
Hoping always get the blessings which never end from You Allah SWT.

CoMmitmenT and Take Action…!

Being somebody who has always the commitment and action, consistent is very difficult for me… Each day when i woke up in the morning actually i do have so many routines activities to do and all the list that i should do for the whole day…. Including the project that i should be start doing now, but each day also i always miss all the list!! Oh my god, i feel very upset with myself….! I always said to myself, “Vinie, how can you reach your goal if you’re not doing anything, you’re not taking any action. You, yourself just complaining or grumbling about your problems but doing nothing to solve the problems!! HOHOHOHOHOHO…..I know you may think that i am a very stupid person who has a very big dream but keep on dreaming without taking any action….

Actually for my project because i don’t have any person who guide me, it really makes me in a great confusion. Just like when the first time in my college life. Guessing and trying to find the right way to achieve something. Maybe it’s because my parents never gave me a guide on how to face the real world. I think between me and my parents, we are lack of communication. They just raising me by keeping me out from what they think is dangerous but didn’t explain it why it is dangerous. They always said don’t do that, don’t do this and as for the result : I always afraid to do or take something which is new for me. They just put me in a great school and had me some best courses but never had the conversation about life.

As the time passed by, and i got married with my beloved husband till present… I’ve learned a lot of things different in his personality. He has the commitment, when he planned something to do today, he will managed to do all things correctly and precisely. He always have the guts to face all the problems a head and the new challenge. And he always take action that is the most important things.

From now on, i learned that i don’t want my children experiencing what i’d experienced. Lack of communication with my parents. I would like to give all the guide how to face this life in this round globe with Alquran and make my children be brave and have commitment with their life. Because i as a parents, cannot always be in their sides. And also from now on i also want to be very commit with myself to be brave and take action!!

Hopefully at the end of this year, all of my resolutions are being accomplished.

Senegal with Its High Tolerancy

Senegal a country with a minimal resources (at least that what i think..), really depending with import goods and specially France as the country who had colonized Senegal. But despite lack of natural resources, the person or i could say the senegalais are very nice and having a very high tolerancy. It shows when they each other helping themselves, giving by relayed the money for paying the ticket in a bus, when the bus is really full and your position far from the ticket booth. This is obviously not happening in my country, which is Indonesia….(feel sorry to tell that). Today, there are only a few of people who care about others, usually they only think about their matters. Or in other words individualist!!

Another example, when i was going to my embassy with my youngest then person who had the seat in carapide would offer me to take aisyah and sit together with him or her. And i’ve never experiencing this situation in Indonesia also.

Or even in my campus, they would help you to buy a sandwich for you when you are too lazy to downstair to buy it by yourself…. I really amazed with the high tolerancy and the feel of belonging each other around… Maybe someday i would take a picture when aisyah were sitting with somebody in carapide to proof my story.

In Senegal, i really learned about tolerancy a lot!! Helping each other without any granted. It’s just the kindness heart they, the senegalais, have in their heart! Nothing else!!

Despite with the minimal facilities that i have now, i have learned so many things in life that i thought i wouldn’t have it if i still live in Jakarta. Oh Senegal, you really teach me how to face my life towards today in a good way…. No Prestigious, luxurious or anything else. It is just how you become a better person today.

Thank You, Allah SWT who had given me the chances to experience this kind of life.

All About French Grammar

Bonne Chance et Bon Courage!!

L’Imparfait is one of the many kind of grammar in French. As you know, when you deciding to learn French, you should take more time deeply because it is a bit complicated and sometimes French doesn’t have fixed rules in their grammar. So you just have to memorize it all especially with the conjugaison in Français… The gender in their noun divided in Masculin and Feminin…..So happy Learning and Bonne Chance!!

Each subject always determines different conjugaison in every kind of grammar in French.

• L’Imparfait explained the action happened in the past but didn’t have the exact time. For Example :

Maintenant, j’habite à Paris, je travaille chez IBM  (présent)

Avant, j’habitais à Marseille, je travaillais chez BMI (l’imparfait)

• L’imparfait also used only as a decoration which doesn’t has movement or static in a sentence, just like a a snap shot in photographie. And there are other sentences following the imparfait sentence which has movement or dinamic with consisting actions usually using Passé Compose. For example :

Pendant que  je jouais, tout le monde bavardait. (l’imparfait).

Soudain, la reine est arrivée. Elle a applaudi. Tout le monde s’est levé. (passé composé)

• Formation for  le conjugaison in l’imparfait : We take from conjugaison de “vous” or “nous” in present then replace end of the verb with (-ais; -ais; -ait; – ions; -iez; -aient), for example :

Vous buv-ez —-  Je buv-ais “or”  Nous buv-ons —- Je buv-ais

• There are some exception in other verbs that you should remember it and no rules for those verbs, such as faire, dire, verb with end of -ger, verb with end of -cer. So Don’t hesitate to open your conjugaison book okay!!

Well, i think that’s enough from me, today about learning french….Keep practicing and don’t forget the grammar!!

Thoughts about Julie & Julia movie

This is life, get through with it happily...!!

I’ve been watching Julia and Julia movie, it is really a nice movies. It tells about to do something what you like inspite of what you have done along in this life but it just not you. It is only activities related with the reality. Well i think it is a good idea to have some activities to getaway from your routines. Mmmhh, i also like cooking, and this movie very inspired me. The message from this movie is you are someone who is precious so keep believe in yourself. Keep taking action and have a target!!

Inside your kitchen is the place where you can explore and have fun with it. When the cooks done, then there you go taste the food… loose all your responsibility for a moment and go for delicious food. I was hoping that i can try to cook all kind of food in Julia’s Child cooking book. But maybe someday i can do all together: doing my hobby, taking care my family and getting money from what i love to do!! isn’t that what everyone hope for??? Even for Julia, there were times when she failed with her cookings, but she keep trying to get perfect or in French called “Parfait” . There were times when she had problem with her life also…it was normal because we are living in the same world and every person definitely experiencing all. She died in the age of 94, oh what a long life she had. And found what she likes to do without any burden!! So for me is keep finding and yeah…keep struggling!! And last from me is just like Julia said “Bon Appetite!”

Walking on the Sand

don't give a lot pressure in your problems, just focus on the solution

Life is about how to find solution to your problems… Life is also about making a choice to be happy or feeling sad. Just like when you are walking on the sand. When you are giving too much pressure on your walking then you will go deeper into the sand then your walks will be slower than ever. But when you just stepping on the sand without the pressure, you will walk faster and reach the destination. It has the same analogy with your problems in life….

When you have so many problems and too focus on the problems then you will have a very sorrow feelings, all the times. But when you decide to focus on the solution then you will find a path to reach your goal. So keep struggling, have faith, and keep moving, don’t forget always praying… okay!!

Start each day with faith, and find all the solution step by step, don’t be too hard with yourself cause you will feel overwhelmed. Stressful and feeling sad, these are not good for your anti aging and your health. Be focus on the solution, make action gradually you will reach your goal!!

Feeling Overwhelmed

bwahahahahah, it's me alright when overwhelmed!!

I know each person who lives in this world now, definitely has a responsibility… But my question is, how can you manage you yourself to keep on the right track?? If you have so many profession, as a mother, as a wife, as a student, and as a worker although the last profession not a full time worker and as a child also.

I feel that i have to be a person who can give anything which is useful for other…okay that’s a very good idea, but sometimes when i am still struggling and trying to reach my goal which is for a better life for everybody in my life, i feel overwhelmed…

Feeling that ooo okay now i feel like wanna throw up and let the burden off from my shoulder….Huhuhuhu how i miss my mother so much… just seeing her face would give me a wisdom in my heart.

Patient and sincere always be the answer of all the problems, and keep praying to Allah SWT. But to know is easy compare to do what you know…

Oh My Lord, Allah SWT…would You give me a break please?? I know You are always working on me to become a good person for the next life… But do please give me a break, why can’t i have one the easiest way to enjoy my life without somebody intterupting my mind and my life?? Without thinking how many responsibilities i have to fulfill….

All i want is supporting my parents and my family…Is that hard??

Hoping Allah always listening my prayer, although i’m far apart from my family but i believe that Allah always giving me the way to solve the problem…!! Amiin.

Counting your Blessings

don't forget to count your blessings

It has been a long time, since i write about my daughters. Because i’m so busy with everything..my school, my job, my family…Really makes me overwhelmed!! Yesterday, i made my status in my facebook account that seems to be complaining about my situation now..Hmmm than there’s a response from my new friend who is for sure experienced in everything!!

She said to me that you shouldn’t complain but should do all the activities with your heart, try always to feel grateful for all the blessing which already been given by Allah SWT.  Count your blessings, don’t complain because it will absorp all your energy…!! Thank you mba nining…YOu should give me more tips to make through this life better…

I know slowly but sure, Allah always answering my prayers, Giving me the job to be more skills than ever, giving the chance to learn more languange, and to have two beautiful daughter, one husband with full of love for me…!

I know i have taken the wrong response to all Your Blessings. Ya Allah, please forgive me..it is just me a human being who always trying to be useful and ikhlas in everything. Hoping Allah always showing the way to get through all the stones up ahead. Don’t forget to say Bismillah and Alhamdulillah…